Poker? I don't even know her

Yes, this is the second time I've used this expression in too short of time.  I don't know why I find it so amusing.  So...poker party last night.  I'm still upset over my loss.  I did come in first place of the losers, so maybe that should count for something.  Can't help but think what I could have done with the $50 in the pot.  I could have paid my overdue college loan payment.  Sallie Mae would have liked that.  She's so nice, she always sends me little reminders telling me all the different ways I can pay my bill.  I also could have paid my cell phone bill.  Instead, I think I'll just wait until they call and threaten to cancel my service before I take action.  I could have used it on groceries.  But who needs groceries when you have a couple cans of tuna and a box of cereal?  I was planning on starting this new diet where I don't eat anything, so it all works out.  Even though I lost, I had a fun doing it.  The game started out with 11 people and in the span of 3 hours wittled down to just Justin and myself.  He had about $40, I had $10.  My only chance was to try to double up.  And I couldn't get a decent hand to save my life.  So I just went all in on a pair of fours.  And I was unsuccessful, b/c the a*hole got two aces.  I didn't stand a chance.  I think I might be dwelling on this a little too much, but what else do I have to think about?  Work?  I wonder what I would think about if it wasn't always about something that had pissed me off.  Who knows, maybe I would think about bunnies and babies and other happy things like that.  Rainbows?  I'm an idiot.  Who comes up with sh*t like that?  Tonight I'm going to see a sneak preview of Garden State...I couldn't be more excited.  Well, unless that preview was followed by sweet love making b/w myself and Mr. Braff.  Yeah....I'll report back tomorrow on how awesome it is. 
Reagan